Saturday, 29 March 2008

long toe nails ...?? NO

In the last few weeks i have come to meet people who seem to think that having long toe-nails makes for a fashion statement ....umm sorry they don't and they look REALLY REALLY UGLY !!

since summers are here and the chappals are coming out...i would suggest that we bring out the nail cutter and shorten those overgrown toe-nails before we enter a public place!

thank you !

Thursday, 25 October 2007

whatttey-fun !!

Lazily i get out of bed, knowing it will be a long day so decided against stressing ! Had a little bit of something that can be called breakfast at 11:45 am. Got dressed to go out with mother by 12:45 pm. Friend waltz into my house leisurely at 1:00 pm and we are out of the house at 1:48 pm !

Meet mother at the gym. Pick up Chinese take away (with no forks or spoons or plates to eat food in and with!) but manage to somehow make do with what we have. With no place to sit and eat take away food, we eat in the car (and leave the car smelling of Chinese food for the next few days!!).

Go around the city to run errands and shop for odds and ends (what exactly does that really mean?!)

Return home at 5:30 pm. Decide to check mail and see what the virtual mail man has for me...and find a mail that makes everything make sense all of a sudden (as if I'd been living a blurr all this while !!). Go out to meet a friend for coffee but end up talking and getting reacquainted without the presence of any hot beverage !!

Finally return home at 7:50, half expecting father to be hungry and tired after a long day, but instead see him smiling and laughing at Seinfeld !

The mail catches my attention and I decide to re-read it,just to make sure I didn't dream it ..and YES !! it is still there and is not a figment of my imagination !!

Whatttey-fun !

Tuesday, 23 October 2007

Musings at 1:00 am...

1)be careful what you wish for, you might actually just get it.
2)growing up is not fun !!
3)joblessness can be a cause for death or temporary insanity.
4)parents are overgrown children when they're unwell.
5)a bag of chips is like a stuffed bra..!!
6)two wrongs don't make a right...but 3 rights make a left !
7)early to bed and early to rise makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise ...(this is completely disregarding the fact that by 7pm the same "man" is exhausted and ready to drop dead !

that's it ...u cant muse any more than this at 1:00 am ..seriously !

Friday, 1 June 2007


Its 5:00 am and I'm still sitting in front of my computer and typing this out I guess this either means that it is really worth remembering or that I am suffering insomnia and am in desperate need of therapy ...either way ...I have realised a few things that I need to publish so that I remember them ...

I feel that the education we receive at school never prepares us for "life" ...I mean yes academically it teaches a lot ..but there are things that one needs to be told right from birth least in my case i should have learnt them a long time ago ...

Need to learn to let go of things and not cling on to what I feel could be hope (in reality its a misconstrued, to the extent of being a warped version of optimism!) 'cos indeed if I knew how to let go ..i seriously would not be sitting here doing this !!!
Need to forget things that don't matter as much as I let them ...need to get more sleep
Should learn to keep my foot in my mouth AT ALL TIMES ...!!
Have to start finishing the books I read as soon as possible (have been reading the same book for over 2 weeks now; and its time i got through the last 70 pages !!)


Thursday, 31 May 2007

once bitten ...twice ...shy???

There comes a point in all our lives that we contemplate the things that we do and the people we associate ourselves with (this usually happens when you hit a rough patch), but we only leave this at the contemplation and tell ourself to "get over it" and "move on"...because who wants to go through the trouble of making such drastic changes ?? But after a point when you clearly cannot let it go and you cannot just move on have to put an end to things ...

Nothing in our lives is tailor-made; agreed ...but we all learn to adjust to the surroundings and learn to make the most of a bad situation ..unfortunately ...sometimes it seems as if there is more bad than there is good (happens when the frame of mind is PISSED OFF)...and strangely everything becomes crystal clear. The step you should have taken a loooooong time back, you regret not taking it (for fear that may-haps it is not exactly the right thing to do ..) But now that the damage has been done and everything IS beyond repair...

I sit and question myself as to "what the hell was I afraid of ?" The answer makes u feel scared when it comes up (because it is indeed the truth ..) but what is more incredible now that you know it will happen are no longer scared're actually ready to face it head-on and are filled with this sense of confidence that you will brave it and who knows ..maybe even emerge the victor !!

So i close that chapter and begin a brand new one on a fresh page ...!!

Saturday, 28 April 2007

such is life ...!

14 days away from home. back to "normal" paradox called life. accused of changing. solitary confinement. erratic sleeping pattern. unhealthy food habits. sunlight till 9:00 pm!! workload-overload. occasional nostalgia. lethargy. complacency. sadoo mood. happy mood. online 24/7. little to nil sign of civilization. phychoanalysis driving me crazy. grocery shopping every week.5-6 cups of chai everyday. 500 ml pepsi MAX a day. almost schizophrenic.

i'm home ..i think!

Friday, 16 March 2007

Live and let ME Live ....

This is your problem.."
"I don't think what you're doing is right..."
"Oh! you have a long way to go before you grow up.."

These are just some of the things that I have been told about myself. It seems as though everyone I meet wants me to change in a way that seems to appease them, yet they live in complete oblivion about how I feel. I mean do they stop to think that maybe, just maybe (by some freak chance) I am doing the best that I can ?? That maybe I am being who I want to be and not who they want me to be? Just because they might have grown up different and or maybe they have more "experience" under their belt, does NOT by a long shot give them the right to enforce their ideas on me or anyone else ...

I'm not sure how many can relate to what I am saying here... but have you ever stopped to wonder that when you pass a comment which hints or directly makes a statement about your (negative) feelings for someone else, seem a little selfish? And what would the repercussion be if it happened to you? I mean sure we're not ok with loads of things people around us do, but there are times that we just shut up and make out peace with it and move on ...(a hint to the wise!)

It may also seem here that I am implying that I do not take criticism very well ..but ..uh ...excuse me ..who the F*#@ does??? who on earth will smile and take a critical comment as if someone were showering them with compliments?

Its one thing to air ur opinion because of "freedon of speech" ...but its a whole different story when you're trying to impose your ideals on someone else just because you seem to have an "understanding" (conclusions based on hasty judgements more than sound analysis) of the other person ...whatever...
So the next time you plan to open your trap to tell someone what you think they should be doing ..just once ..get out and look at yourself ..chances are might be doing the same thing you're about to criticise ....

I plan to sum up my ranting by saying...nobody is perfect and NEITHER ARE YOU !!
So back off and let me be with my flaws ...i happent to like them ...!

Monday, 12 March 2007

Words of wisdom, or ......

(This was one of the most interesting mails I recieved ....)

1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me,

for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty much

leave me the hell alone.

2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and

leaky tire.

3. It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your

neighbors' newspaper, that's the time to do it.

4. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.

5. Always remember that you're unique. Just like everyone else.

6. Never test the depth of the water with both feet.

7. If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of

car payments.

8. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes.

That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their


9. If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.

10. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish,

and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.

11. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was

probably worth it.

12. If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.

13. Some days you're the bug; some days you're the windshield.

14. Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

15. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put

it back in your pocket.

16. A closed mouth gathers no foot.

17. Duct tape is like 'The Force'. It has a light side and a dark side,

and it holds the universe together.

18. Generally speaking, you are aren't learning much when your lips are


19. Experience is something you don't get, until just after you need it.

20. Never miss a good chance to shut up.

.........and the last but not the least...............

21. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative

on the same night.

Sunday, 4 March 2007

birthday (un)blues ...!!!

yes ..this post is on birthdays as well ...!!

today (march 5th) happens to be my birthday (which i have been running away from the past few days)...but due to sentimental reasons ..i am compelled to write this blog ...(read on ...!)

I had been dreading my birthday (read the blog titled "birthday blues"..!!) and today i recieved a present which i was (needless to say, wasn't expecting) wishing 4 all my (so-called) adult-life ... A SURPRISE PARTY !!

i thought that my friends back home would be the ones planning and enforcing it ....but it turned out to be the people i least expected it out of ...

for a while i had thought i would call some friends over so that we could have a few drinks and a few laughs nd just be together on my birthday ..but since i hadn't made a formal plan ..last minute (which is this afternoon) everyone said they were either busy or they might drop by 4 a few mins ..or sumthn on those lines ..there was no commitment coming 4m anyone ...

finally ..heartbroken and succumbing to a feeling of 'forsaken-ness'(if that is a word and a feeling !!) ..i decided 2 just give up hope that i wud b having a happy one ..!!

a friend took me to a movie and then dinner ...(the food was just incredible..there are no words that can aptly describe it!!!)..the movie and the dinner seemed to have helped me in forgetting all my sorrows and woes (temporarily) and i had almost forgotten the reason that had depressed me earlier ...after our evening ...we boarded the bus and came home was around 11:15 pm. I wanted to just go home and crash ..cos the thought of being alone on my birthday was beginning to get to me ... (the song "i'm just a kid" by simple plan started ringing in my head) ...anyway ..after stalling and falling asleep some 2-3 times.. at 12 o'clock i finally i bid my friend farewell and he wished me a happy birthday ...i made my way to my room ...("i'm just a kid" playing in repeat mode now!)

the main door leading to my room was unlocked ...i am too much of a pessimist/realist to think that now i will be given a surprise ..i figured someone was either expecting company or someone was having a party (which i wasnt invited to !) ...

feeling as though ive hit rock bottom and it could not get any worse ..i opened the door to my room ..and from the darkness somewhere in the mouse hole that is my room ..i heard the words "SURPRISE" ...!!!

i turned on the lights to find that my room is full of my friends waiting for me to come in and blow out the candles and start celebrating my birthday ...!!!

i dunno how many people can relate to this blog ..but the feeling of them going through the trouble of doing this and arranging it was just so overwhelming that i cannot stop thinking about it ....(there is good in this world afterall!! hehe)

so here's wishing a goodnight to you all and a HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...!! ( flashing a big-toothy grin!)

Wednesday, 28 February 2007

don't ask ...

this is F*cking ridiculous (sorry for the language ..but read on ...) ...

last nite i slept off at the most ridiculously early hour of 00:45 ...and i wake up at 07:45 am ..turned the other side and tried to sleep in the hope that when i wake up next will b at a good 11:00 am or something ..and after drifting off,i wake up to find out the time hasn't changed much and it was now 07:55 am ...(crap!)

pissed off and elated (yes! at the same time..!!..too bad if i'm blessed with that capability and you're not!!) with the fact that im up so early ..i decide to start my day ...since i did most of my reading for class ..i had my whole morning to waste ...(whooptiee-dooo ..lucky me!) class is scheduled for 15:00 ..and till then i am free to do what i want ..(yeah ...whatever!!)

so i talk to my dad..reply to a few mails etc. and start doing some random searches online aim purpose ..and its not a surprise that i find nothing of interest ...i pick up a book to read and suddenly i realise i forgot to leave a bookmark on the page i was on (more irritation!) i start reading and i keep reading till i reach the page i was on ..and while im reading surrounded by this sense of deja vu ..cos wht im reading seems familiar ...!! (i know it sounds retarded ...!!) ..needless to say, i left the book ...

anyway its almost 11:00 and i'm off to get ready ..not 4 the 3 o'clock class ..i have a small errand to run b4 tht ...

anyway's to a fun day of mundaneity (if tht is a word!)
and a good day 2 u 2 !!